100 Things About Me
1. I live on an island
2. I've lost 3 children to heart defects
3. I'm married (not happily unfortunetely)
4. I have a 10 year old stepdaughter whom I adore
5. I'm 27 on April 20th
6. TL is someone VERY important in my life who causes me such grief and yet intense happiness too
7. I'm terrified of heights though I never used to be
8. I was raised in a very religous home
9. I love a good drink even though I have to hide it when I do
10. Spring is my favourite season
11. My girls are 5 and 2... I adore them
12. I want to be a nurse in pediatrics... wish I had gone to university instead of staying home for love
13. I am going to be dulse harvesting this summer
14. My mother was told to abort me when she discovered the pregnancy because of her health problems
15. I was an "accident"
16. I adore my dad... wish we were closer (he is so shy and so am I)
17. I worry about death a lot
18. I used to suffer from severe panic attacks when I was younger
19. I had severe asthma as a teenager but it disappeared when I became pregnant
20. Both daughters have had asthma also, but youngest nearly died from it
21. I was Obsessive Compulsive as a teenager
22. In school I never quite fit in... too shy
23. I can be pretty humourous when I open up and get to know people
24. I always feel fat, but I don't think I'm overweight
25. I have low self-esteem
26. I used to party all the time
27. Met my hubby while partying
28. I have never travelled anywhere far away...
29. I like attention... makes me feel like I am special or worthy
30. My looks are very important to me
31. I love Pink the singer. She sings songs that mean something to me too
32. I used to sing in church growing up
33. My prom and prom party was ruined by my boyfriend... I cried myself to sleep that night while my friends partied
35. My "best" friend stabbed me in the back twice
36. Two other friends also backstabbed me when we were younger.
37. I hate confrontation
38. I want everyone to be happy with me. I'm a peacekeeper
39. I look just like my older sister
40. My sisters are 39 and 41. My brother is 43
41. My mom is 61 and dad is 64
42. I enjoy reading a lot
43. I walked everyday last summer and got very fit
44. I'm so dark from the tanning bed that it looks like I travelled down south this spring
45. I love water
45. I also love long hot baths by candlelight
46. I could sit and watch the thunder and lightening for hours
47. Sometimes I feel like I'm living my life for everyone else
48. I really want a divorce but hate to be a failure in my marriage. I'm scared to be on my own
49. My hubby scares me
50. I was not brought up in the type of living situation I now live in
51. I want another baby but not with hubby
52. I am in therapy now
53. I love jumping on our trampoline
54. My mother nearly died giving birth to me. I also nearly died
55. My oldest niece is almost 20. I feel OLD
56. I'm scared to hit 30
57. Survivor, Friends and American Idol ROCK!
58. I'm a pasta girl... love tomatoes and cheese too
59. I hate my boobs... 5 pregnancies have not helped them. They used to be perky
60. I love to go out and socialize, go to the bar, dances, but I am not allowed
61. I quit smoking 2 and a half years ago
62. I write letters to my dead children every year on their birthdays
63. I was afraid of my 7th grade teacher, she threw desks out windows and smacked kids in the head
64. The only subject I ever failed was Chemistry in grade 10
65. I could have done much better in school if I had applied myself
66. TL used to consume my life and heart
67. I think he still does
68. I act like I care for J but I hate her
69. Music is a big part of my life. I don't know what I would do without it
70. I have to travel 3 hours just to get to a mall. No malls on this island
71. Ferry trip is almost 2 hours long one way
72. My daughter in kindergarten is ahead of the other kids in her reading level
73. My youngest daughter is a little imp... who loves to tease
74. I have a belly button piercing
75. I want a tattoo
76. Its going to be hearts and name banners of my angels
77. My mother and father can't know. They would think I was horrible to have a tatto
78. I hide things from them like a child
79. I just don't want to disappoint them
80. I have a cat named Thumper
81. He is very loving
82. Our other two cats disappeared last summer. We believe hawks circling around our yard picked them up
83. My 15 year old niece is hoping to move here this summer. She has become like a sister
84. Her dad is my brother. He lives next door to me
85. He has been through hell like I have and he is my hero
86. So is my dad
87. My mom prays for all four of us kids faithfully
88. I would liken her to a saint though she would disagree
89. When they die, I think I will die
90. I think I was doted on when I was young being the baby and all
91. I sometimes wake up crying and can't remember why
92. My mom had cancer 3 years ago. She's in remission.
93. My dad smokes secretly He doesn't know I know. We are much alike
94. I hate baby, wedding or bridal showers
95. Crowds make me nervous unless I'm drinking
96. I have several great friends. I am blessed
97. I love shopping (too much!!)
98. Diaryland rocks!!
99. This is almost done. This was harder than I thought
100. Signing off.... catch ya later :-)
Almost too much - March 24, 2006
Contact... Oh God - March 22, 2006
Life is cruel - March 02, 2006
Todd's Back... - September 03, 2005
still here - February 12, 2005
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