It’s been a busy weekend. I really don’t even know where to begin this entry. I got a review back from I Hurt You Reviews a couple of days ago… and it kinda ticked me off… I always said I wouldn’t take these reviews seriously… but man, I never knew someone could find so many damn things wrong with one diary… It just kinda ticked me off to be told that I sound like a teenager (?), don’t show enough emotion, and that I don’t have any insight as to the world around me… geez… It even made me doubt that my writing is good enough for anyone to read… silly, I guess. I’m not going to dwell on it, hell I can even laugh about it now… but at the time I would have loved to ask her where half of her comments came from… *chuckles*
One thing I did realize is that I’m going to have to come up with names for those I have initialed. I have only initialed 2 people… but I will rectify this now. TL will now be called Todd and “J” will be Brenda. I hope this doesn’t confuse anyone, to change this all of a sudden… but so many reviewers have commented on it, that I figure I should do something about it. Oh… and dictator will now be called Shawn as he is listed in the cast page… unless he really pisses me off. Then the gloves come off and I call him whatever I want for as long as I’m mad…
We went to a barbeque at Brenda’s and her husband’s house last night for supper. Then we went buggying (on ATV’s) until 1:00 am… Oh my God… how fun! There were four couples, including us, and we had a blast. Near the end of the evening, we were just playing around and flying through these mega deep water and muck puddles and soaking ourselves and each other… I’m talking puddles up to your waist or more deep. Well, Shawn and I got stuck at one point and the buggy just stopped. Water-logged I suppose. I surveyed my options for getting to dry land without getting even more wet and saw that my only chance was going to be on Shawn’s back while the buggy was getting towed with a rope. He got me on his shoulders and man, he was so unstable. The bottom was rocky and it was just awkward and clumsy.
Justin, another guy with us, (who is one of those classic funny as hell guys to hang out with), saw his chance and came running at us. He only had to touch us with one finger to make us fall.. then they both threw me in again once I got myself standing again. Do you realize how heavy you become when you are walking with full boots, soggy pants and a dripping wet heavy sweater dragging you down? Ack! It was not good.. and Brenda and I got thrown in 3 more times each before we finally decided that it might be a good time to head home and get dry!
I took one look at myself in the mirror when I walked in the door and I just laughed.. I’d had a few drinks and it just struck me how silly I looked with mud caked in my hair and dripping down my face, sopping wet and looking completely bedraggled. I was quite a sight. I jumped in the tub immediately and bed never felt so good once I finally made it there.
I’m sore as hell today… my back is aching and I can’t hardly move, but I’m happy and content. Shawn and I had a nice time together for once… it did us good and I hope we can have more of those fun times together… Even he enjoyed himself.
We did have a bad episode 3 nights ago, an episode that resulted in my brother, Andrew calling me the next morning because he heard what was going on from next door… But last night’s fun has pushed that to the back of my mind for now. I’m just going to savor this good feeling while it lasts. I’ll fill you in what happened once this aura of happiness fades away again. Because as much as I want to believe it won’t… deep inside I know it will.
Almost too much - March 24, 2006
Contact... Oh God - March 22, 2006
Life is cruel - March 02, 2006
Todd's Back... - September 03, 2005
still here - February 12, 2005
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