Life is so weird... Funny how you grow and change as time goes on. So much has changed in the last few months that I don't even know where to begin to update.
Argh... its so frustrating. I wish I had been updating all along. Oh well, I'll try to summerize as best I can.
Todd
I haven't seen him since October. Things have been utterly crazy concerning him. We were supposedly ok up until the end of January. Then we went 3 months without talking. I guess someone (his sister-in-law they now think) carved my initials plus his initials on his camp door. He thought it was me... uhuh.. AS IF. Anyway, with that and Brenda opening her big mouth to tell him bullshit about me... he was just biding his time.. We both traveled down south with our spouses in March and we finally talked last week again. At which point I told him that if he wanted it to be over, then to have the fucking guts to tell me cause people don't just fade away into nothing just because you want them to.
So we decided to end it cause it was for the best... and then on my birthday, he gets in touch with me again and makes me feel all mushy and tells me that yeh, he would like to see me again...
ARGH!
Can you say... DEJA VU??
We've been down this road before and damn it... here we go again.. IF I decide to again. My feelings for Todd have gone through an overhaul and I just don't feel the same affection for thim that I did. I mean, I do love him, yes... but man, he's sure put me through a LOT!
So we'll see... that story seems to be neverending.
Well that's it for now. I still have to update on Shawn and the kids and other things, but that will be another time.
Hugs!
Butterflies... - March 26, 2006
Almost too much - March 24, 2006
Contact... Oh God - March 22, 2006
Life is cruel - March 02, 2006
Todd's Back... - September 03, 2005
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