poetry
10:26 a.m. || April 29, 2003
Welcome to my poetry page. This is the spot where I'll be sharing my poetry... both recent and older. I wrote a lot in my teen years and now again since my angels were born. Often I find myself woken out of a deep sleep with a poem in my head and I get up and write it right then... My best poetry comes from those times... and from my personal grief and pain.
Also here I may be posting some pretty special poetry written by others...
Enjoy... (and let me know what ya think!)
CAN'T ESCAPE
Written in memory of Angel David
I long to hear you whisper in my ear
Tell me darling that you’re alright
To know with blessed assurance
That you are in the light
My heart is aching, oh its aching
Full of loneliness and gloom
Can’t escape the dark cold silence
That surrounds this empty room
Oh come to me, my sweetness
Lord, I can’t stand this pain
I want to scream out at the world
That I need you here again!
But you’re not here, my heart cries out
Oh my blessed son...
I’m empty, oh so hollow
Mommy needs you little one...
Endless grief for you, my love
Trembles deeply from inside
Threatening to break loose
In a huge rippling tide
A terrifying silence
Consumes this whole place
So cold here with your absence
A barren empty space
Few can ever know
A grief such as mine
Tightly grips my soul
With me all the time
Weeping for my child
I loved more than life itself
Weeping for my son
This grief, I know it well
Oh my son I need you
I’m begging you to come back
Fill this hole in my heart
Give me pure joy that I lack
Angel I am weary
I feel so very, very old
Can you hear me calling?
Come back for me to hold
You are but a little spirit
Who touched your mommy’s heart
All the world to me, yet
We’re so many worlds apart
My heart is broken
Shattered in a million pieces
Though I think I understand now
What our Lord teaches
Little son I must surrender
To a mother’s gripping madness
Live with it lifelong
This complete dulling sadness
Written by Ann for Emma on her 5th birthday
Little miss Emma
You are five years old today
I remember the joy you brought
to all, in your very short stay.
Your mom was so proud of you
She called me and said you were here.
I was so glad to hear that,
I had to yell out and cheer!
The next call wasn't so good Emma,
Your mommy said that you were sick.
And that you and your scared Daddy,
Had to take a dangerous trip.
I cried with your mommy when she said
The doctors sent you away.
To a hospital just for sick babes & kids
They flew you to the IWK.
We waited to hear good news Emma,
I guess it wasn't meant to be.
You were taken away from this world,
For it was you, God was calling to see.
I wasn't lucky enough to see you
With any life in your face.
For a very short time, Emma,
Your parents were blessed with your grace
You are like an umbloomed flower,
You've been set free like a dove.
You are the sparkle in the stars
You're a beautiful angel from above.
So Happy Birthday, Emma.
Happy fifth birthday,
What a happy day it'd be,
If God had let you stay.
before || after
Almost too much - March 24, 2006
Contact... Oh God - March 22, 2006
Life is cruel - March 02, 2006
Todd's Back... - September 03, 2005
still here - February 12, 2005
I feel
today
the spark
